Before I go to bed I will often reflect on my day. I sit and think of how the day went, what happened, what took place, how were my actions or behavior. And God often shows me how controlling I am. I like things a certain way. I have a hard time giving things over and often find myself having a huge part in situations that I put myself in and should not have. There have been incidents, problems and scenarios that arise in my life or my families and I think I am able to help find a solution to fix it for them. I want to be the answer. Now, as I do this it ALWAYS leads to a disaster. There is chaos in the midst which leads to confusion. And I am left with the question: Why did I get myself involved?
I find myself holding on to problems that I know deep in my heart I can’t fix or have no power over. And I know deep down that even if there is an answer that comes out of myself it is not the best one. However, my flesh is weak. And I want to keep holding on to it just a little longer thinking soon I will have the answer.
In Matthew 26:41 it tells us “Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”
My flesh is most definitely weak. However, when I look to Him there is peace that surpasses my understanding. There is a lightness to the day that I am unable to offer to myself. However, when I SURRENDER each day and allow Him to take control I am free from torment, there is no anxiety and He is taking hold of my problems. I become less controlling in my family’s life. My hands are not involved in situations that I should not have placed myself in. The problems that I thought I was able to fix or find a solution to become obsolete. I am laying down every burden and problem that I am met with and giving it over to Jesus. The controlling Amanda has gone away and Jesus is taking center stage.
Now, of course this is a daily practice that I must continually do. As I wake up each morning I have the choice of allowing myself to take center stage of each day or handing it all over to Jesus so He can have His way in my life as He wants for us. Now I don’t know about you but, I would much rather hand it over to Jesus and allow Him to direct my path and take all the heaviness that the world has for me and allowing His presence to come upon me and to walk in that light that He promises us.
Matthew 11:29-30 “Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Now I leave you with this question, are you allowing Jesus to take hold of your situations or are you allowing self to take control?